'Been a while...
Posted at 10:11 AM

Its been a while since I last visited my own page... too much work to do, too little time to use...

well, i turned 23 the other day, may 03... and i dont like it much... i dont wanna get old... i wanna be forever young...  but there's nothing i can do to stop it...

I just felt a little better when my boyfriend assured me that it'll be okay coz we're gonna grow old together... he greeted me a day late coz he'd been busy... i almost hated him for it... but he did made up with all the nice things he said... and he assured me that there's nothing i need to worry about... thats enough to keep me calm...

but now im missing him more and more everyday... i wish the days would pass by swiftly so that we can start living together real soon... i just want to be with him as soon as possible... everyday is incomplete coz he isnt with me... i hope things will be okay in no time...

A Sweet Message...
Posted at 08:40 AM

This is from his email to me on the day after my birthday:

"medyo matagal pa ko dito honey ko... pero hindi kasing tagal nung unang plano... atleast makapag ipon lang ng kaunti... dont wory ganun parin ang plano natin... dyan na lang ako magwork with you... then magsasama na tau.. i want to spend my life with you because i love you.. so kahit na hindi me nakakapag email sayo... ayokong nag aalala ka... ok... i love you!!! ingat ka palagi kasi mahalaga ka sa buhay ko... ok!!! mwhaaaaaa!!!!!"

im so happy to have received this message from him... it brings out tears of joy... it makes me feel good even on a very hateful day... it makes me miss him so much but it somehow compensates for the distance and the time that we havent spent together...    

it makes me look back at how we started out... and the reasons why i love him... and how much i value him... i havent completely forgotten the reason why we had parted for a year but it doesnt hurt as much anymore... and finding us together in the end is all we would ever need to heal...

thinking of why and how much we argued makes me think of how childish i was and how very understanding he was... i was always jealous about any thing that doesnt involve me... and he loves me despite that... but i think he loves me also because of that... and that made us belong together...

im really hoping and praying that this is it... im more than willing to wait and i feel that its worth it all in the end... i just want to be happy with the one i love and who loves me just as much if not more...

i love you so much honey ko!!!...   

Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy Me...
Posted at 08:55 AM

Just wanna share this funny incident...

I texted my crush last Tuesday, to ask when he'll be leaving for CDO... He replied, "Sunday, Y?"... So i replied something, which i cant remember and added that im gonna be missing him plus a smiley... His next message was by her GF who asked, "At bakit mo naman mamimiss ang BF ko?"... I was simply amused... and i felt like being a bit harsh so i said, "... ...coz he's a nice guy and he's my ultimate crush, anything wrong with that?"... and i was laughing to myself after i sent it... i didnt get a reply after that and it bothered me to think if they argued over it...

Later i was thinking that if somebody sent such a message to my honey ko, i would have called or hunted the girl down... whatever came to my mind when i sent that message really was mean... good thing though that the guy and i will never have to see each other again...

Out of the blue, he sent a funny quote yesterday morning which said all good words to describe someone then says just kidding on the last part... and i wondered why he sent that... he would reply to my questions but never forwarded me a quote since i started texting him... i was really curious as to why... so i asked him, "arent jokes at least half meant", and added a smiley... he didnt reply after that... but then im still wondering why and what it could mean... hahaha... asa pa!... i love my honey ko, di ko pa rin pagpapalit yun...