The Surprise...
Posted at 07:14 AM

Never got the time to write this important thing... but another one is coming up soon so i better do something...

Last time i wrote was about my honey ko coming here in early July... that wasnt the end of it though... their group had extended their stay here and he surprised me when he called my celphone to say he's back in Manila (from Cebu)... he even called me at home later that day to make arrangements for us to go out that night...

I decided to excuse myself from work and meet him instead... We planned to go to Malate but decided to just find a bar in Aranete so we wont waste time travelling... We ended at Padi's Point, not a really nice bar but its better than none... He ordered a few bottles and we just listened to the music... in all our years together, it was the first time we went to a bar together... it felt good and im happy just being beside him, kissing and hugging...

We didnt stay there long... we went someplace where we can spend the night together... kissing and hugging and lying in each other's arms... we talked about the past and our plans... and made "kulit" tickling each other... it was fun... we were together until morning... we would not have wanted to leave but we both have things to do... he promised that the wait will be over soon and we'll be living together eventually, regardless of what others say...

yeah, all i wanted was for us to be together... we love each other so much and we managed to make it together despite the time and distance... nothing is impossible with love... and im so glad we have a lot of that...

       

One Year...
Posted at 09:10 AM

He's been working there for one year and only has one year more to go... Not really a long wait anymore...  I feel so happy just thinking about it... And I am so happy to be with him once again... He's the best reason to start July with...

He was here for a business trip, 2 days in Manila, then Vigan, then Cebu... He spent only one whole day with me, which is super "bitin" but very satisfying...

He picked me up from work at 5:30 AM (he even came earlier than that) and welcomed me with a kiss and a hug... I introduced him to almost everyone on my team... I was so overwhelmed with his presence that I was all over him like crazy... Im so proud of him and I wanted him to know that Im very happy with him...

We had breakfast and stayed together until around 7 PM... We took some videos and laughed together at our mischiefs... We were both a little tired so we slept for a few hours... I was wrapped tightly in his arms and he was snoring lightly... We kissed, hugged, talked most of the day, and even cried a little... I always had to do a little crying coz i like the feeling of him comforting me... It was a day I wished would never have to end...

But it did... I had to go home and he had to leave at midnight for Vigan... It was an obligation he cant escape coz that gave him the opportunity to come home... It was sad that we had to part again but I have nothing to worry about... Its just one more year to go and we'll be inseparable after that... We love each other and we know we'll make it...

thank you honey ko!... i love you so much!!!... mmmwwwuuuaaahhh!!!

            

Sweet Sweet Love...
Posted at 09:58 AM

Day before I got this was one of those days when I felt really sad and neglected... I was missing him so much and I was on my edge coz I felt like our relationship was going nowhere... But what I got in response to my e-mail to him really comforted me... And I knew then that I would just have to be more patient and understanding...

"lam ko na unfair tlaga sa side mo ang pag hihintay... pero pinapangko ko sau na na babalik ako... ok.. magsasama tayong dalawa... kahit sino pa ang tumutol tayo pa rin... gusto ko tayong dalawa lang... at aalagaan kita... gagawin ko lahat para hindi ka na masaktan uli... basta promise mo lang na magpapakabait ka... hehehehehe!"

This like, made all the doubts and uncertainty vanish... Im sure I love him, and nothing will change it whether he tells me that or not... But getting that assurance from him is different... It made me feel like he was just close by... and that the waiting will end sooner...

A long distance relationship is not really easy to handle... temptations come... and doubt eats trust... but if love is really there, its easier to fight them all off... I love him and that was enough... I just know we'll make it through...

            

Love Moves

A Sweet Message...
Posted at 08:40 AM

This is from his email to me on the day after my birthday:

"medyo matagal pa ko dito honey ko... pero hindi kasing tagal nung unang plano... atleast makapag ipon lang ng kaunti... dont wory ganun parin ang plano natin... dyan na lang ako magwork with you... then magsasama na tau.. i want to spend my life with you because i love you.. so kahit na hindi me nakakapag email sayo... ayokong nag aalala ka... ok... i love you!!! ingat ka palagi kasi mahalaga ka sa buhay ko... ok!!! mwhaaaaaa!!!!!"

im so happy to have received this message from him... it brings out tears of joy... it makes me feel good even on a very hateful day... it makes me miss him so much but it somehow compensates for the distance and the time that we havent spent together...    

it makes me look back at how we started out... and the reasons why i love him... and how much i value him... i havent completely forgotten the reason why we had parted for a year but it doesnt hurt as much anymore... and finding us together in the end is all we would ever need to heal...

thinking of why and how much we argued makes me think of how childish i was and how very understanding he was... i was always jealous about any thing that doesnt involve me... and he loves me despite that... but i think he loves me also because of that... and that made us belong together...

im really hoping and praying that this is it... im more than willing to wait and i feel that its worth it all in the end... i just want to be happy with the one i love and who loves me just as much if not more...

i love you so much honey ko!!!...   

The Promise...
Posted at 02:28 PM

That was tuesday night, march 15, our last night together before he flies back to CA... im both happy and sad...

we were together from 10pm til 7am of the next day... just the 2 of us in each other's arms... kissing, hugging, talking, laughing, sleeping... we made sure we'll have quality time together...

there was no telling of when he'll be coming back... he has to work... save money... i asked him what his plans for us were... told him how hard it would be waiting for no one... i told him i would not want him to promise me something he doesnt mean...

he says i would just have to put everything in his hands... trust him... and everything will be alright... he will try to come back sometime within the year... and in about 2 years we'll be living together...

he said that he had always been faithful since we got back together again... and i dont have to worry about anything... that we both learned from our mistakes and that it will never happen again... he'll be in touch through email, ym, and aim...

he took videos of us together and he said he will keep those and bring it with hm so he can look at us when he feels sad... he already had some photos of us taken when he went here in october but he wants updated ones...

i trust him... and i know that our love is lovelier the second time around... i love him so much... i dont want him to go but we have no choice... we would just need to wait for the time when we can live together... 2 years isnt that long... we will make it... God bless us...

i love you honey ko... i love you so much...